STARVING......

literally AND figuratively.

so much has been going on lately.....

i am going to california with 3 of my besties to see the murder city devils!!! in san fransisco AND los angeles. i cant wait! we are gonna get rowdy. it's gonna prolly beat out austin, tx for best trip ever. maybe i'll meet some rad people too. :D i did last time.

and i don't care if i'm 25 years old....I LOVE TWILIGHT! i'm so far from being a reader and i cant put these books down! i want a vampire! or better yet, i real life edward! i want a sexy man that rocks and wants to protect me all the time. hahaha. unrealistic huh? :\ yeah.

i hate having "crushes" b/c nothing ever works out the way i want it to. i know despite feeling old, i am only beginning my life. still, i want someone to want me as much as i want them and i'm impatient! my biological clock is ticking and i want to at least be able to look at my future and see the possibilities. but i don't even have the foundation built yet for that kind of a future.

i hate being a girl.

whenever i write these things, i always look back and think, "god, people prolly think i'm bi-polar". that's not the case, REALLY. i'm just completely scatterbrained.

***edward***